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- kit - 12-12-2016
When i came to this league i fell in love. I loved the idea of a simulated hockey league because i never got to play hockey as a kid but was always in love with the sport. But more than that I was in love with this community.
Since day one in this league I worked my ass off to build a reputation for myself. A reputation as someone who was hard-working, and extremely passionate about this league. That reputation led me to a multitude of jobs, the most important one being Whalers GM.
I've been talking to lot of people recently about my stint of inactivity over the past year or so. And it's constantly been on my mind ever since I came back. Since I've done a lot of thinking I realized I fucked a lot of people over by leaving.
So I need to apologize. <a href='index.php?showuser=121' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-56'>teztify</a> and <a href='index.php?showuser=1178' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-13'>Jedi</a> im sorry for going inactive on you after you gave up a lot for me in a trade, i know you'll say it was still worth it but I wasn't the player or member you traded for after a season. I also need to apologize to teztify because he put himself out there to help get me the whalers gm job and i fucked that up big time, that brings me to my next apology.
To every member of the Whalers during my brief time there, i really am sorry. I know a lot of you don't really give a fuck at this point but I did you guys wrong. The worst thing in the world is an inactive gm, especially in juniors. So im sorry to all those players i drafted and left on, I dont remember you all because I was inactive, but I still feel horrible about it.
The person who I probably hurt the most by going inactive though is <a href='index.php?showuser=1164' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-3'>JHS</a> . The man gets a lot of shit from a lot of people around the league but I picked him as my co and he was a damn fine co, and made an even better gm. He literally did all the work when I was head gm, and won the team a fucking cup and people still give him shit. I fucked up and left him to lead a team on his own and I don't think many could have done it better. I definitely don't regret my decision to hire him.
I used a bunch of excuses for the reasons I went inactive. Yes it's true i was a camp counselor for the first time that summer, and I didn't have a lot of time for the shl, but the kit who built that reputation would've found a way. The fact of the matter is, i lost the fire and love for this league that I once had. I found myself every day growing more tired and tired of the league, not because it wasn't fun anymore, but because I was hurt. In S20 i was drafted to the Hamilton Steelhawks 4th overall. I received numerous PM's from the tea telling me how excited they were that I was available and that I was the franchise now. They wanted to build a team around me. That was the most amazing thing I'd ever heard. As seasons went on there was talk of the gm at the time (LVShark) stepping down, and I was told by numerous people on the team that I was to be the one that took over. I was ecstatic. GMing was my dream and to be handed a job like that, well it was just too good to be true. The time eventually came and I received a message on kik "we think Lv is gonna step down and it's between you and Tanner for the job".
Tanner was and is a great dude and I love him to death, but hearing his name there brought up a response in me. Why would Tanner be considered? haven't you been telling me this is my team now for seasons? I thought nothing of it really because I figured I'd get the job anyway, i mean there as no way they would do me like that right? wrong. I got the message a few days later that Tanner would be taking over as GM. I couldn't believe it, I was so hurt. I gave my heart and soul to the team, for them to skip over me, it just hurt. The news came from one of my best friends too. Mike messaged me that it was a group decision, and I couldn't be angry, I was just so incredibly hurt. So at that point I congratulate Tanner, who in the end was most likely the right choice as he won two cups and was a fantastic gm. I messaged him and told him I wanted out, I couldn't stay on a team that constantly fucked me over. (There was a bunch of other behind the scenes shit that was pretty fucked up, but I even put up with that because I loved Hamilton). This was the final straw for me and Hamilton, and it ended up being the final straw for me and the league.
From that point on slowly my activity started to die. I remember coming on the SHL every day and just thinking that i didnt love coming on anymore. Nonetheless I was still kind of hungry for a gm job so I went out and got that Whalers job. But what the league didnt know at the time was I was hesitant to even do that. I didn't know if I wanted it anymore. It turns out I didnt.
All this came at the end of my senior year in Highschool, which may have been the worst couple months of my life, for other reasons. But the place that I found my escape at I couldn't go to anymore. because every time I came back I was still hurt.
I don't blame Hamilton or anything like that for me going inactive on the Whalers. I take full responsibility for that. But I've needed to say this for a while. What happened in Hamilton realy, really hurt, and i doubt any of you can ever get that.
So again Im sorry, to JHS, Allen and any other member of the whalers Im sorry. TO my friends on Edmonton that I abandoned, even though I came back later I really am sorry for leaving you, especially tez.
That being said I'm back here to earn my reputation again. My passion and love for this league is back, and I'll get a GM job again, and ill be a damn fucking good gm too. SO if you read this, thanks. If not whatever, I just needed to say it. And to all you people who have no idea what im talking about if you wana learn more just shoot me a pm id be glad to talk.
Oh and mostly sorry to <a href='index.php?showuser=306' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-3'>O4L</a> for being woat ivern
- princekyle - 12-12-2016
Love you Kit, you the fuckin' man
- Muerto - 12-12-2016
remember when you got traded for me and then Hamilton won the Cup?
- Sorator - 12-12-2016
Props for having the guts to apologize and to say what you've needed to say for a while. It can be hard to move past the hurt and the guilt both if you don't stand up and acknowledge it where folks can hear.
I think the fact that you could and did get this out there bodes well for your longevity in the league, man. Glad to have you here.
- Baelor Swift - 12-12-2016
When you want to get any sort of position of power, in real life or online, you're going to reach a point where it feels like you got screwed over, where it feels like someone you trusted betrayed you, where something that you thought was a non-issue is blown up and comes back to bite you. These are the times when you have to decide why you want something and if you really want it for the right reasons. And you have to be okay with whatever the result may be and persevere. You can be upset but you cannot allow it to consume you. What's in the past is in the past. Unfortunately, you dealt with things the wrong way. And the fact is, it is easier to build a good reputation than to repair a damaged reputation... something to always keep in mind and to always think twice about.
- Allen - 12-12-2016
ily kitty >:D<
- Schultzy - 12-12-2016
Didn't even tag me? </3
- storm - 12-12-2016
Quote:The worst thing in the world is an inactive gm
Pfffffft.
- crutch - 12-12-2016
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- EuroCap - 12-12-2016
All I am reading is that you didn't want to be on a team with me. :((
- drodger91 - 12-12-2016
Welcome to the semi active lifestyle. Most people on here are very good about it, they realize things happen and your online community can wait. I know I've felt like I've pissed off multiple people with my terrible track record, but they have all understood, it's a good community!
- TML99 - 12-12-2016
4 Lyfe :-x
- Noble - 12-12-2016
Quote:Originally posted by drodger91@Dec 12 2016, 08:17 AM
Welcome to the semi active lifestyle. Most people on here are very good about it, they realize things happen and your online community can wait. I know I've felt like I've pissed off multiple people with my terrible track record, but they have all understood, it's a good community!
Yo how do I have no idea who you are?
- r1c3bowl22 - 12-12-2016
Quote:Originally posted by EuroCap@Dec 12 2016, 09:11 AMNo one ever does.
All I am reading is that you didn't want to be on a team with me. :((
- .bojo - 12-12-2016
<3