When you want to get any sort of position of power, in real life or online, you're going to reach a point where it feels like you got screwed over, where it feels like someone you trusted betrayed you, where something that you thought was a non-issue is blown up and comes back to bite you. These are the times when you have to decide why you want something and if you really want it for the right reasons. And you have to be okay with whatever the result may be and persevere. You can be upset but you cannot allow it to consume you. What's in the past is in the past. Unfortunately, you dealt with things the wrong way. And the fact is, it is easier to build a good reputation than to repair a damaged reputation... something to always keep in mind and to always think twice about.