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RaiN · 03-23-2017, 08:58 AM

It's been quite some time since I'm typed anything up for the SHL. A lot has happened in my life in which i'll share shortly. Hopefully it gives some clarity to why I haven't been as vocal as I normally have been in the past. But first, I'd like to thank my co this season who has done an absolute tremendous job on what she's been able to accomplish. <a href='index.php?showuser=1833' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-13'>Cynthia</a>, this season wouldn't have been as successful as it has been without your dedication, countless hours going over line strategies and all the off-season work that GMs are required do. You were the only person who knew what was going on and what i've been dealing with these past months. Part of me felt I should leave the SHL but ultimately the SHL is kind of my escape for me at times. In retrospect, focusing on managing a team allowed me to get away from the real world so to speak. Still however, a lot of the time this season I couldn't really be there, so thanks <a href='index.php?showuser=1833' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-13'>Cynthia</a> for stepping up and doing a great job, because like I said, we would not have been as successful as we were without you.

That said, I'm going to dive right into it.

On December 23rd, 2016, my girlfriend's mother passed away with lung cancer. My girlfriend is 20 years young so dealing with this sort of thing has not been easy. You never really know what it's like to lose someone until they are physically gone. The unfortunate thing that made this harder is that my gf's birthday is Dec 30th so having a birthday without her mother for the first time was again, quite difficult. I was actually very close to her mother and was the first guy that has been around her family so for me even, it has been rather difficult as well. Due to everything going on I actually took some time away and that is why I was super grateful to have <a href='index.php?showuser=1833' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-13'>Cynthia</a> around because she was there when I couldn't be.

On December 29th, I got into a car accident with my girlfriend and her aunt. My girlfriend had some concussion symptoms and her aunt had some back issues. For me, I was fine but I think I was just in that moment where I was more concerned about everyone else so I kind of forgot about myself. To make matters worse, my car was totalled and it took forever to claim the insurance because the man who hit me was 6 months new to Canada as he and his family came over from Syria.

At the beginning of February, I've was starting to notice something kind of go wrong with my body. I have actually had this condition for awhile but just thought it was triggered due to my injuries back when I played competitive AAA and Varsity puck. Basically what happens is on movement my body will stiffen up or I guess tighten. I am still conscience of what is around me, I can still hear and see what is going on, but it's like my body shuts down and I can't move. 7 years ago, doctors told me it was all in my head and it's something I can control but what didn't make sense to me was that even nerves could trigger this. For example if I was presenting in front of a class or something simple as crossing the street after waiting for traffic. It's spontaneous and I can't really control when or where it happens - it just happens Because my symptoms and episodes were getting worse and my "normal" life was not normal anymore, I decided it was best to see a specialist. The specialist revealed that I have a condition called Paroxysmal Kinesigenic Dyskinesia or PKD. Essentially it's a movement disorder that can't be cured but can be treated. So currently, I am on medication for pretty much the rest of my life if I want to prevent the amount of the episodes that happen daily. Luckily for me, I work from home when I analyze and track NHL games so that isn't an issue but still, being 22 and being told you are on medication for the rest of your life for something that you can't control - well to simply put, it sucks.

I've been doing my best to just keep life normal for awhile, it has sort have slowed down as we are at the end of March and luckily with the Leafs contending for a playoff position and the North Stars in the mix for a Challenge Cup, I've been able to be distracted in terms of where my focus is at. It's actually been nice to work on contract negotiations and prospect check in's to make sure Toronto still has a bright future ahead of us.

So I just wanted to apologize to those who I have maybe let down by not being "as active". I'm hoping to get Barby 4-500 career points before retiring or just might retire after next season and recreate- who knows. But at the same time, a big thanks is needed to everyone in the North Stars locker room. I know things haven't been easy with a major decline in activity due to having an abundance of vets, but thanks to those who have continued to stick around and with our prospect pool filled back up, I am super stoked to see what we can do in just a short amount of seasons. Thanks for having faith and giving this team a real chance at competing for the last 10-15 seasons!

Thanks for reading, hope this explains everything. It's now time to put in some work and get ready for S34! Stars

Symmetrik · 03-23-2017, 09:11 AM

Damn man. Sorry to hear that.

Eggy216 · 03-23-2017, 09:27 AM

Jesus Christ man. Glad to hear you're still going strong through all that.

***JKortesi81*** · 03-23-2017, 10:18 AM

I know this is supposed to be a bit of a "Holy shit man" story, but i'm going to choose to look at the positives.

It's awesome that this stupid little site can help you through all of the craziness that's been surrounding you, and it's even MORE awesome that you didn't decide to leave us. Going through your rough stretch there would be enough for a lot of people to just bail on the league (and understandably so) but it's worth something to say that this place helps you out during this stuff. I love it.

With all of that said, *hug*

That's the best I can do, but you've got this.

Go Stars

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CFJ · 03-23-2017, 11:11 AM

Man, just by reading this that the stuff I go through on a daily basis is nothing compared to you what you've gone through in the past few months alone. I've had a couple of concussions myself playing AAA hockey myself so I would also understand what you and your girlfriend have gone through. All I have to say, is to stay positive and keep moving forward. Also, Go Stars

and Go Leafs Go Smile

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MWHazard · 03-23-2017, 12:13 PM

Love to

from :admirals:

Hang in there man.

Grapehead · 03-24-2017, 08:54 AM

Sorry to hear about this series of events, stay strong brother

***Wally*** · 03-24-2017, 09:18 AM

Quote:Originally posted by MWHazard@Mar 23 2017, 10:13 AM
Love to    from  :admirals:

Hang in there man.

I second this <a href='index.php?showuser=1485' rel='nofollow' alt='profile link' class='user-tagged mgroup-13'>RaiN</a>

Hang in there... Positive thoughts are with you!

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Forever remembered Jaywhy:
09-21-2016, 07:10 PM

To say the least, I'm very disappointed to not even be the first goalie off the board. Here I thought people would want the proven guy who runs the sim.

On the bright side...

I GET TO GO TO NEW YORK! FUCK PORTLAND!

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